[Huvrye doesn't do this often. He doesn't confide in his fellow soldiers as much anymore - not since the Joba's death, and the innate understanding that anyone who really understood how he felt would be staying away from him for their own safety - and when he did, or when they talked to him, the shared theme was fighting the Corrupted. It was awful, but everyone was coming from the same place. The only teenager he'd tried to help was Yin, and their bond made things complicated and unique, and at least they had the context of the same world. He's not prepared for this, beyond the bounds of what compassion and experience with trauma provide him.]
[But he can read that bit of desperation in Leo's eyes, and it strikes him very suddenly that there are a lot of wrong answers to this question, and he has no idea if there are any right ones, or how many, or if they even exist, let alone whether he'd recognize one if he came across one. All he can do is try, and hope he makes all of this better, not worse.]
Yeah, I don't see why not.
[That's not going to be good enough, is it.]
But if they are settled, that means you don't need to beat yourself up over it anymore.
[It's obvious, but nobody ever accused Huvrye of being subtle. Plus, maybe Leo needs to hear it plainly for it to sink in. That was on me; I really, really messed up; it had to be me - Leo needs to stop sinking a knife into that wound, and maybe this will help. Maybe.]
[Or maybe he's found one of the many wrong answers and this will only make it worse. He has no way of knowing yet.]
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[But he can read that bit of desperation in Leo's eyes, and it strikes him very suddenly that there are a lot of wrong answers to this question, and he has no idea if there are any right ones, or how many, or if they even exist, let alone whether he'd recognize one if he came across one. All he can do is try, and hope he makes all of this better, not worse.]
Yeah, I don't see why not.
[That's not going to be good enough, is it.]
But if they are settled, that means you don't need to beat yourself up over it anymore.
[It's obvious, but nobody ever accused Huvrye of being subtle. Plus, maybe Leo needs to hear it plainly for it to sink in. That was on me; I really, really messed up; it had to be me - Leo needs to stop sinking a knife into that wound, and maybe this will help. Maybe.]
[Or maybe he's found one of the many wrong answers and this will only make it worse. He has no way of knowing yet.]